I. GEORGE (circa 1967–1979)
The kid with the transgender dog never really left the fields, even after the fields were gone.
Orchard Park back then — late 1960s, early 1970s — was still half-wild. No fences in the neighborhood. Just open land rolling out behind the houses, creeks cutting through, hayfields that hadn't been subdivided yet into quarter-acre dreams and driveways. A boy, second-generation German-Polish on his father's side, third on his mother's, spent most of his daylight out there, barefoot, grass to the knees, chasing whatever moved.
He was four or five when the dog showed up. His older sister had already claimed the name months earlier: if we ever get a dog, it's George. No vote, no debate. The name was waiting. When their mother came home with the toy collie–German shepherd mix — small, black-and-tan, bright-eyed — the name landed like it had always been hers. George was a girl. Nobody blinked. George was George.
She locked onto the boy like he was the center of her universe. Wherever he ran, she ran. If he slipped out the back door and sprinted across the yard, she would nose the gap under the porch or squeeze through whatever opening existed — no fences meant no real barriers — and catch him before he hit the tree line. He tested it on purpose sometimes: slam the screen door, bolt hard, duck behind the garage. Ten minutes later there she was, tongue out, tail whipping, looking at him like the chase had been the best part of her day. She never got lost. She never quit.
But George had another life nobody in the family mapped. Routes she took alone, destinations only she knew. One afternoon in high school biology class — first-floor room, big windows looking out over the campus — the boy glanced up and saw her: George, trotting across the high school lawn with calm purpose. No leash, no human, just a small dog cutting a straight line toward whatever pulled her. She crossed a busy road to get there. Cars slowed. Drivers stared. George didn't flinch. Later he learned she had a spot three streets over — someone slipping her treats, or a garbage can she raided, or both. She had secrets. Loyal to her people, loyal to her hidden paths. Both true at once.
The most vivid memory came during one of those western New York snow-belt storms that bury everything under two or three feet overnight. The creek behind the houses froze into a perfect toboggan run — steep drop, long flat at the bottom, kids from every house hauling sleds down the hill. The boy was there with George, who bounded through the drifts like she was born in them. She loved snow. Begged to go out in blizzards, curled up on the sidewalk, let the flakes pile over her until only a small mound remained. Call her name and her head would pop up, snow flying off her ears, eyes bright, as though she'd been waiting for the cue.
That day the kids played until fingers burned and cheeks stung, then started the slow trek home as the wind kicked up and visibility dropped. Nobody noticed George wasn't with them. The storm thickened. Hours passed. She was gone.
Parker Berg — three years older, same age as the boy's brother Alan — was the one who went back out. Parker was tall, long-legged, strange in the best way: read books nobody else touched, listened to records nobody else had, talked about things nobody else mentioned. He'd already turned the boy on to Pink Floyd at age ten or so, sitting in Parker's room with the lights off while "Echoes" filled the space like fog. Parker walked into the whiteout, found George curled in a snowdrift, half-buried, shivering but alive. She would have frozen if he hadn't gone looking. He carried her home, snow caked on his coat, set her down by the radiator. She shook once, hard, then curled up again like nothing had happened.
Parker shows up in the boy's stories again and again. The strange kid with long legs and deeper thoughts who walked into hell and came back with a dog. He didn't make a big deal of it. He just did it. Years later the boy would understand that was the model: see the need, move toward it, don't wait for permission or applause.
George wasn't panicking when Parker found her. She was doing what she always did: settling in, waiting, certain someone would call her name. Loyal without possession, independent within bond, keeper of unseen paths who always returned. She lived her whole life that way — girl and George at once, public devotion and private routes, disappearing into snow and trusting the world would dig her out.
She was the first. She set the template. Every dog that followed would be measured against her without knowing it.
II. SEAMUS
Seamus came along in the years after the fields were gone, after the boy had left Orchard Park and become something closer to a man. Irish name, fitting personality — stubborn and warm in equal measure, with opinions about everything and a talent for making them known. Where George had been independent, a creature of private missions and self-determined routes, Seamus was social. He wanted to be in the room, in the conversation, part of whatever was happening. If you sat down, he sat with you. If you stood up, he stood up too.
He had the kind of face that strangers stopped to remark on — expressive eyes that communicated something beyond the usual canine range, a way of tilting his head at a question that made you feel briefly that he understood and was considering his answer. Children loved him immediately. He had infinite patience for small hands, for being grabbed and climbed on and used as a pillow. He seemed to understand without being taught that certain people needed gentleness, and he adjusted himself accordingly.
What Seamus taught was different from what George taught. George taught independence — loyalty and secrets held together without contradiction. Seamus taught presence. He was not the dog who explored the neighborhood alone or showed up unexpectedly on the high school lawn. He was the dog who made wherever he was feel complete. When he was in the room, the room was better. When he was gone, the absence was specific and real. You felt the shape of where he'd been.
He got hit by a car. It happened fast, the way those things do — a moment of inattention, a gap in the fence, the wrong car coming at the wrong second. The boy watched it happen and could not stop it and carried that image for years afterward, the way you carry the things you cannot unfeel. Seamus survived but was never quite the same afterward, moving carefully where he had once moved with confidence, checking for threats his younger self would have ignored.
There is a particular kind of grief in watching an animal lose its ease in the world. It is not like human grief, which comes with language and narrative and the ability to ask why. It is quieter and therefore somehow more concentrated. Seamus still loved, still showed up, still tilted his head at questions. He just did it with the knowledge — visible in his body if not communicable in words — that the world contained things that could hurt you without warning and without reason.
He lived a good long life after the accident. He did not stop being Seamus. But the boy never forgot what he'd witnessed, and the lesson added itself to the ledger without being asked: pay attention. The world can change in an instant. The things you love are not protected by the fact that you love them.
III. RIPPLE
Ripple arrived the way some of the best things do — not chosen exactly, but inevitable once she appeared. Named for the Grateful Dead song, which was the right name immediately and completely: gentle, rolling, persistent, the kind of music that gets into the bones and stays. She was medium-sized, mixed breed in the best sense, built for endurance rather than speed, with a coat that collected burrs on every walk and eyes that missed nothing.
By the time Ripple came along, the boy had become the man in full — landscape architect turned sculptor, gallery owner, shaper of public spaces. He was living in the kind of life that accumulates meaning slowly, through labor and attention, where the work itself is the point and the rest arranges itself around it. Ripple fit into that life the way a good tool fits the hand: naturally, without adjustment.
She was a working dog in temperament if not in role. She liked to have a job. On walks she would position herself slightly ahead and to the left, scanning, then check back over her shoulder to confirm everything was in order. She approached new places the way a good foreman approaches a job site — methodically, covering the perimeter first, then working inward, cataloging what was there. He recognized the impulse. He operated the same way.
Ripple was the dog of the middle years, the long productive stretch when the work was going well and the days had good shape to them. She was there for the commissions, the installations, the drives to job sites across New England. She rode in the truck with the easy authority of a dog who has decided this vehicle belongs to her and she is choosing to share it. She slept in studios and on job sites and in the backs of galleries, unbothered by noise or strangers, sorting the world into relevant and irrelevant with a precision that would have been useful in a law firm.
What she taught was harder to name than what George and Seamus had taught. It was something about steady companionship — the kind that doesn't announce itself, that doesn't demand acknowledgment, that simply persists alongside you through the ordinary and the extraordinary alike, treating both with the same calm attention. She was not a dramatic dog. She did not have George's secret life or Seamus's expressive face. She had something rarer: consistency. She was the same dog every day, which meant you could rely on her the way you rely on the best people in your life — not because they perform reliability, but because they simply are it.
She lived long and well and died the way you hope they die — at home, among people who loved her, without prolonged suffering. The man who had been the boy sat with her at the end and understood, not for the first time, that the specific grief of losing a dog is its own category. Not lesser than other losses. Different. Concentrated in the body rather than the mind, felt in the hands and the morning routine and the absence of weight on the floor beside the bed.
He missed her immediately and completely and did not try to replace her right away. That, too, was something the dogs had taught: some losses deserve the full weight of their space. Don't rush to fill it. Let it be what it is.
IV. TOTEM (1996–2012)
Totem was the last one, and the longest. Sixteen years — which is a significant fraction of a life, enough time for a dog to become so woven into the daily fabric of things that removing her was like pulling a thread that turned out to be structural. You don't know how much the whole thing depended on it until it's gone.
The name was right from the beginning. A totem is a guardian, a symbol, a connection between the visible world and the one underneath it. She carried the name without irony, with the straightforward seriousness of a dog who takes her responsibilities as given. She was large enough to be imposing and gentle enough that she never needed to be. Children who were afraid of dogs were not afraid of Totem. Something in her bearing communicated safety — not submission, but trustworthiness, which is different. Submission says I won't hurt you because I can't. Trustworthiness says I won't hurt you because I choose not to, and that choice is absolute.
She arrived in the middle of a life and stayed through all of it — the moves and the projects and the relationships and the years of building things and the years of watching things get built. She was present for so much that she became a kind of continuous thread through otherwise discontinuous chapters. When things changed, Totem was the same. When the address changed, Totem adapted. When the work changed, she watched from whatever corner she had claimed in the new studio with the same interested calm she'd had in the old one.
She had a particular gift for reading rooms. Not just moods — rooms. She understood which spaces were hers to occupy and which required her to be smaller, quieter, tucked away. She could assess a stranger in seconds and file them correctly: safe, uncertain, irrelevant, worth watching. The man had learned to trust her assessments. Over sixteen years he couldn't remember a time she had misjudged a person.
She also had the quality that George had had — independence within loyalty, a sense of her own inner life that didn't depend on human attention to sustain it. She could be alone without being lonely. She could be in a crowd without being overwhelmed. She occupied her own center, which meant that her affection, when she gave it, felt chosen rather than reflexive. She sat with you because she wanted to sit with you. She followed you because she had decided you were worth following. That distinction — chosen loyalty versus habitual proximity — is one that matters more the older you get.
In her last years she slowed, as they all do. The joints stiffened. The walks got shorter. She still wanted to go, still hauled herself up with the same determination, still cataloged the smells along the route with the same thoroughness, just more slowly. There is a particular kind of courage in old dogs that nobody writes about enough: the daily decision to keep showing up, to keep engaging with a world whose physical demands have outpaced their physical capacity, because the engagement itself is worth it. Totem had that courage in full.
She died in 2012, in his arms. Sixteen years is a long time to love anything, and the ending of it was exactly as hard as sixteen years of love would predict. He held her while she went and sat with her afterward and did not try to make it smaller than it was.
He has not had another dog since. Not because he stopped loving dogs — the opposite is true, has always been true, is one of the most consistent facts about him. He gets down on the ground to meet every new dog he encounters. He knows within seconds if a dog is happy or anxious or uncertain, and responds accordingly. He has cared for the dogs of friends and neighbors and near-strangers, walked them and fed them and sat with them, and loved the temporary loan of their company. The bridge gardener whose apartment he once rented trusted him with her dog during her absences, and that trust was not misplaced. On one occasion he waded into a dog fight — two animals he didn't own, in a yard that wasn't his — and separated them with his bare hands, taking a bite in the process, because it was the thing to do and he was the person who would do it.
But he hasn't gotten his own dog again. Not yet. The loss of Totem sat differently than the others — heavier, or maybe just final in a way that the others hadn't been. Sixteen years is enough time to build a whole world around a creature, and the absence of that creature leaves a world-shaped hole. He knows he could fill it. He knows another dog would be its own thing entirely, not a replacement, not a lesser version, but a new beginning. He knows all of this the way you know things intellectually without feeling them yet in the body.
Maybe one day. He'd want a punter — a dog with personality and opinions, one that would hold its own in a conversation and then go find something interesting to do. A dog that would ride in the truck and assess job sites and claim corners in studios. A dog that would choose to be loyal rather than defaulting to it.
George started it. Seamus deepened it. Ripple sustained it. Totem completed it.
Four dogs, one life, and the man they made.
Society could learn from dogs.
We build fences where none are needed, slap labels that don't fit, demand everything conform to one story. George didn't. She crossed roads, kept secrets, loved the cold, trusted her people would call her name. Seamus sat with you because he chose to. Ripple showed up every day the same. Totem knew who to trust before you'd said a word. In a world that loves to divide — us versus them, right name versus wrong name, loyalty versus independence — they were undivided. Each of them taught a different lesson and the same lesson. Goodness doesn't need permission. It just shows up and keeps showing up.
all lyrics ©2026 John F. Sendelbach
[Intro – gentle acoustic, storytelling feel]
Out where the wild ones run, under that pale moonlight
Wolves howlin’ secrets, foxes slippin’ out of sight
Coyotes dancin’ free where the old woods meet the sky
Then something ancient softened… and walked right into my life
[Verse 1 – George arrives]
From the timberline call to the back-porch light
A little black-and-tan crossed over one summer night
Sister named her George before she ever arrived
Girl with a boy’s name – best joke the world ever tried
She’d chase me through the orchard, no fence could hold her back
Nose the gap, squeeze through, never once lose my track
Independent spirit, secret routes all her own
But when I called her name… she always came runnin’ home
[Chorus – big, uplifting, full voice]
Oh the dogs of my life, they run through my soul!
George, Seamus, Ripple, and sweet Totem whole
Sixteen paws where the world just slowed
Waggin’ tails and bright eyes, turnin’ houses into homes
Mud on the floors and joy in every room
From the wild they came, to my heart they stay
Chasin’ joy through the night and the break of day
Four paws, one pack, my wild and faithful crew
Every step I take… I’m runnin’ there with you!
[Verse 2 – George snow story]
Snow-belt blizzards buried the creek three feet deep
She’d curl in the whiteout, just a small mound asleep
Parker walked into the storm like a knight in the night
Carried her home shakin’, set her down by the light
She taught me loyalty don’t need a leash or a chain
She could disappear for hours, still come back the same
Girl and George at once, public love and private trail
She wrote her own story… and wagged her own tail
[Chorus – bigger, add harmonies]
Oh the dogs of my life, they run through my soul!
George, Seamus, Ripple, and sweet Totem whole
Sixteen paws where the world just slowed
Waggin’ tails and bright eyes, turnin’ houses into homes
Mud on the floors and joy in every room
From the wild they came, to my heart they stay
Chasin’ joy through the night and the break of day
Four paws, one pack, my wild and faithful crew
Every step I take… I’m runnin’ there with you!
[Verse 3 – Seamus]
After the fields were gone and the boy became a man
Seamus rolled in stubborn, Border Collie with a plan
Named for Floyd's kitchen blues, where the old hound cried
She’d push the herd, push the room, push her love out wide
Kids climbed her like a mountain, she never once complained
Even after that car hit, still showed up just the same
She taught me presence – the power of simply being there
When the world got heavy… she lightened up the air
[Verse 4 – Ripple]
Ripple rolled in like a Grateful Dead song on repeat
Gentle rolling rhythm, steady on her feet
She rode in the truck like the whole road belonged to her
Scanned every job site, made sure the world was secure
No drama, no secrets, just calm day-after-day
The kind of friend who shows up and never walks away
She turned long quiet years into something warm and bright
Steady as the sunrise, pure and simple light
[Chorus – full band, let it breathe]
Oh the dogs of my life, they run through my soul!
George, Seamus, Ripple, and sweet Totem whole
Sixteen paws where the world just slowed
Waggin’ tails and bright eyes, turnin’ houses into homes
Mud on the floors and joy in every room
From the wild they came, to my heart they stay
Chasin’ joy through the night and the break of day
Four paws, one pack, my wild and faithful crew
Every step I take… I’m runnin’ there with you!
[Verse 5 – Totem]
Totem came last and stayed sixteen beautiful years
Guardian, totem, quiet keeper of my fears
She read every room, sized up every soul
Chose to sit beside me – that choice made the bond whole
Joints got stiff, walks got short, still she hauled herself up
Old-dog courage shining in every slow step and look
Sixteen years of choosing me, day after day
She didn’t just love me… she decided to stay
[Bridge – emotional, then swells]
They left a world-shaped hole when each one said goodbye
But the love they left behind still lights up the sky
Now every spring the daffodils push through the earth once more
Right where we laid sweet Seamus in that quiet green field
[Floyd’s Kitchen Blues – reflective pause]
(Strip it down – acoustic or soft piano, space between lines)
Floyd's kitchen blues… yeah we could learn a lot
We build walls where none are needed, tie ourselves in knots
Slap on labels, draw the lines, demand one single tale
Dogs just show up undivided, love without a fail
Goodness doesn’t need permission, it just wags its tail
Keeps on comin’ back no matter how the cold winds wail
They teach us how to be present, how to simply be kind
How to choose each other with an open heart and mind
So here’s to every wild heart that chose to walk our road
From wolf to fox to four dogs who lightened every load
George started it, Seamus deepened it, Ripple held the line
Totem sealed it with sixteen years of pure sunshine
Dogs of my life, you’re the reason I still believe
In a world gone wild… the simplest love sets us free
[Final Chorus – huge lift]
Oh the dogs of my life, they run through my soul!
George, Seamus, Ripple, and sweet Totem whole
Sixteen paws where the world just slowed
Waggin’ tails and bright eyes, turnin’ houses into homes
Mud on the floors and joy in every room
From the wild they came… to my heart they stay
Chasin’ joy through the night and the break of day
Four paws, one pack, my wild and faithful crew
Every step I take… I’m runnin’ there with you!
[Jam / Fade – long and joyous]
Every step I take… I’m runnin’ there with you…
Sixteen paws… four paws… waggin’ tails runnin’ true…
Floyd's kitchen blues… still lightin’ up the room…
